Monday, March 02, 2009

A Never-Posted Post from a Few Weeks Ago

Things here have been very…umm…up in the air. We have been waiting…baited breath and all…for the next step in our lives to arrive. We’ve been hoping and planning and working and waiting and anticipating for a couple of years now. We thought that the time had arrived. December was a tough month…and the first two weeks of January weren't so hot either. We’re coping…barely. I feel like that’s the best we can do right now…it’s all we can do to be honest. I think we’re both just focusing on putting one foot in front of the other…repeat...let’s just get through this day…repeat…let’s try to get at least a little bit of sleep tonight…repeat.

What’s making it even harder is that we don’t know where to go from here. This has shaken us…deeply. And as we attempt to piece things back together, to grieve and to accept and to move on, we are left to wonder which direction to turn.

Needless to say, I haven't felt much like creating. I haven't felt inspired. I haven't felt like doing much of anything at all. Depression rears its ugly head. We're old friends, but I refuse to let it in this time. I'm trying to keep busy...mundane things mostly...cleaning, organizing, working, laundry, baking. I need to nest. I need to rediscover the things I love, the things that make me happiest.

Send me warm thoughts for these chilly times. I'll bounce back soon enough.

5 comments:

Persimmons Gal said...

Persimmons Gal said...

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Persimmons Gal said...

Opps I think that was alot of posts....he he.

Sawdust and Paperscraps said...

Kate I came here in an effort to answer a questions you asked about using a painted countertop in your kitchen but got caught up in this post. What happened? I realize it is nearly 1 1/2 year later and I don't even know if you will get an email notification of my comment. I hope things are going better for you now.

I think you could use a painted countertop in your kitchen. I wouldn't prepare food directly on it or use it as a cutting board. Many of us have painted tables in our kitchens so what's the difference? I'd do it if it only needed to last a year or so. You could tile pretty cheaply too and that's really easy so that might be another option.

Sorry about the book here. I couldn't find your email address.

Sawdust and Paperscraps said...

Hoping things will look up for you soon! Hugs!